Monday, November 7, 2011
Pursuit of Happiness
It's been awhile since I wrote a blog post. I could say it's because I don't have time, or because I'm absolutely exhausted all of the time, or because I don't even have time to speak to my best friends, or get a cup of coffee, or pee. Those are all just excuses. I think the real reason I haven't posted in so long is because I haven't felt very happy or confident. I feel like I'm trying to sprint through a marathon. From the moment I wake up to the moment I hit my pillow at night, I am sprinting. I love my job, I love the dogs, I love the clients, I love the students. I also love ice cream, but I'll still get a stomach ache if I eat a whole gallon. I am literally working myself to death and functioning at a stress level that is way too high to be healthy. I work more hours than my investment banker little brother, who makes seven times as much money as I do (without a graduate degree). I would be happy if I spent all of those hours training dogs, but the reality is that I spend most of those hours making spreadsheets, organizing people, managing the madness. I feel like my training skills are slipping. I am not the trainer I used to be, I am hearing all my fellow trainers telling me to do things differently and I'm losing my instinct. My instinct used to be on point. I think it's just because I haven't seriously trained in ages. I feel stressed and exhausted. So, you ask, what are you doing about it? Well, first things first, I am taking more time for myself. I am taking better care of my body. This means thinking ahead about what I'm going to eat when I get home from work at 8:30pm. This means hitting the gym on all those days I'm not working until 8:30pm. It means saying "no" when I simply can't add anything else to my plate. I need to make time for friends and family, even if it's just a phone call. The bottom line, is I need to work out a better work-life-balance. I need to take charge of my own happiness.