It's been awhile since I wrote a blog post. I could say it's because I
don't have time, or because I'm absolutely exhausted all of the time, or
because I don't even have time to speak to my best friends, or get a
cup of coffee, or pee. Those are all just excuses. I think the real
reason I haven't posted in so long is because I haven't felt very happy
or confident. I feel like I'm trying to sprint through a marathon.
From the moment I wake up to the moment I hit my pillow at night, I am
sprinting. I love my job, I love the dogs, I love the clients, I love
the students. I also love ice cream, but I'll still get a stomach ache
if I eat a whole gallon. I am literally working myself to death and
functioning at a stress level that is way too high to be healthy. I
work more hours than my investment banker little brother, who makes
seven times as much money as I do (without a graduate degree). I would
be happy if I spent all of those hours training dogs, but the reality is
that I spend most of those hours making spreadsheets, organizing
people, managing the madness. I feel like my training skills are
slipping. I am not the trainer I used to be, I am hearing all my fellow
trainers telling me to do things differently and I'm losing my
instinct. My instinct used to be on point. I think it's just because I
haven't seriously trained in ages. I feel stressed and exhausted. So,
you ask, what are you doing about it? Well, first things first, I am
taking more time for myself. I am taking better care of my body. This
means thinking ahead about what I'm going to eat when I get home from
work at 8:30pm. This means hitting the gym on all those days I'm not
working until 8:30pm. It means saying "no" when I simply can't add
anything else to my plate. I need to make time for friends and family,
even if it's just a phone call. The bottom line, is I need to work out a
better work-life-balance. I need to take charge of my own happiness.
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